For those of you who don't know, my birthday is coming up on April 23rd. Now for me, a birthday has always been something I look majorly forward to. I don't have a lot of friends, and therefore, I don't get a lot of attention. So, it feels nice to finally have a day where the attention is on me. Me and only me. I think everyone has a right to have one day all about them. :)
Anyway, a few years ago, I read Paris Hilton's Confessions of an Heiress
. In it she said that every girl should wear a crown on her birthday. So, I went out and bought a beautiful prom tiara type crown.
So, I've been wearing it for at least 2-3 years on my birthday. I can't remember for sure how long because the years go by so fast. I figured, Paris Hilton wears one, so it's not immature for me to wear one. Also, my sister has a co-worker who is a lot older than I am, and she wears one. Heck, one year at a restaurant I even saw a lady who looked to be in her fifties wearing a paper crown because it was her birthday, and she was with a friend for her birthday dinner. So, the more I think about it, maybe it's not so immature.
However, I think Paris wrote that book in 2003, so that means she was 22. Maybe she doesn't wear a crown on her birthday anymore now that she is 30.
Also, my sisters would never wear crowns on their birthdays and they are 10 and 15 years older than I am. So I'm wondring if it is immature for a girl who is turing 29 to wear a birthday crown. I myself love wearing it. It's only a once a year thing after all. I don't want people to laugh at me though.
It's just finally getting through to me. I'm not a kid anymore. I have no job, and I live off of my father's money. True I get Robin (the lady who lives with us and who has down syndrom) ready every weekday. I get $60 dollars a week for that. That helps a bit. I want a real job though. However, everywhere I apply doesn't want to hire me because I have no experience. I am not fast enough for fast food, and I would so not be happy there anyway. I tried McDonald's once, and it was a living hell. My mother always used to say a job isn't worth it if it makes you miserable.
It's scary, leaving my twenties in just over a year. I want to be independant and grow up, but it's so hard to do! I sometimes think people talk about my situation behind my back, thinking I'm lazy or something. I'm not. I'd love to work at Kohl's or somewhere, but people won't hire me! I just don't want people thinking I'm a kid who refuses to grow up. I want to. Believe me, I want to.
Anyway, back to the question at hand. To wear the crown or not?